Valentine

This pot of flowers is from my dar. For 2006, I have a pot of orchid,since then until now it hasnt produced any flowers at all. Instead lots of shoots and leaves...

This year, I got this big pot of dunno-what flowers. Pretty isnt it. And lots of flowers.

From my beloved student leaders. It was delivered to me in school. Arent they a sweet bunch of boys. Thank you so much!

Wishing...

I was pushing Meg for a stroll, came by the junction....pausing for a moment to think where I should go. Eventually ended up where I used to have many fond memories...familiar sight of students training, softballers batting and balls flying everywhere, runners were doing their intervals training...the sounds from the surrounding were all so familiar... that was like when I was back in VJC 12 years back.

I remembered very clearly how everyone celebrated friendship day in VJC. That was one of the most memorable time I ever had when I was a teen. Flowers, bears, letters, cards, songs, laughter, balloons and boys..... I remembered that year, I received a very long letter from Kewinn, my best best friend from VJC. I remember that year I received a bear from my first boyfriend. I remember how the track people went out as a grop to celebrate this day.

We do not live in the past, we live in the present. I guess Colin is going to get me another pot of orchid for Valentine's day. Actually I do prefer anything to roses.... but this time round I hope the flowers from the pot will be purple in colour... I love you dar

A photo of my darling...

A phototaken by Mu Yao. A very nice shot. I have this on all my computers' desktops.

CIP day

Well.... I guess many has lost the idea of Moral Doing in CIP. The system is in such a state where people carried out CIP for the sake of clocking the others.

I was rather disappointed with a boy today. How would it feel like when someone is trying to lose you by running away. It is so drama. For what? What's the intent? Outward rebel? Gesture of rejection? I was trying to connect this incident to God. Hope that He will comfort me. One of the rare time I found myself sobbing in the little corner of the supermarket. Guess that gesture hurts. I find myself once again hurt by my student. Is it worth the effort to feel so much, or to connect with them. And in returns, who really cares about our feelings? I always wonder ... does all this comes in the package in this profession.

SLI 2007

Emo Emo , everything was so emo...
Stressed out, but all went well.
10 mins before the ceremony, everyone in the control room was in panic. The thumbdrive of the GOH's presentation doesnt seems to work. And I personally do not find his presentation nor his speech that inspiring. Perhaps it will work on the younger minds of 16, but not mine. A little kidish in fact.

Whats the essence of leadership? A god character? What is it?
Leadership .... not everyone is born with it. It comes with nuturing, practice, mistakes, encouragement, affirmation, and learn through failures and successes.
I have read from a book... a leadership of good character must have 3 attributes...moral knowing, moral doing, and moral feeling. Seriously, I think many of our Victorians have to work on moral feeling, more than the other two.

I was almost touched when I heard the voices from the other student leaders in the auditorium singing the song SORING HIGH. It was impromptu singing. I guessed everyone was so inspired by the investiture, and the event was at its peak. Everyone who refused to sing during the rehearsal, was singing it with conviction. It touched me. Very Emo sight actually.

A few person that I wanna to thank...PSB, MC, PB and most of all our head planner, Chin Boon. You have shown me what it takes to be a prefect, a student leader, a black shirt of Victoria School.

Bomber man

Had four hours of that yesterday, and half the time I bombed myself.

lasagna and pasta day

YUPPY ..... tomorrow is FRIDAY...

Made beef lasagna and mushroom pasta just now.
Colin seemed to enjoyed every single thing I cooked except the beef rendang that I cook 3 weeks ago. It was hardly chew-able. The meat was too tough, guessed I din cook long euff.

Feel very disorganised about the wedding preparation. Swee seems to be able to get things written down in a very systematic way, but not me. I am too lazy to type and retype. I give up.

I am so happy that Godwin will be coming for our wedding. His gf is coming too. I am looking forward to it. Joseph will be coming too, but not too sure if he is able to make it for the church wedding. No news from Sheree and Jacky yet.

labour day fun

Today went to the beach with the rest. Ab, lon, swee, peigang, weiling, shawne, and myself went to the beach. Chery joined us for ice cream after that.
A pity kopi and chills couldnt come along, the weather will be too hot for both of them. the beach was in a bad state. the shore was somewhat back.

I had apple crumble just now. was too sweet for my liking. I still prefer the chinese egg tarts over any other dessert.

life ....

it strike me when i was talking about new york and india.
you will learn more about other side of life if u compare these 2 places

from Ecclesiastes 7:4 "the heart of the wise is in the house of mourning, but the heart of fools is in the house of pleasure"
From the wake of furnerals, we learn about life from birth till death. We learn about life experiences and struggles and successes that build us up. We learn about life isnt about ourselves but more about others. We learn about life is not just being heard but leaving a legacy for the younger generations. We can learn and value life from misery and from poverty. We come to learn and value life when a disaster strikes. We learn about life when we loses someone we love.

Everything that we have is already a blessing from God.

chills & kopi

these are my two babies.
Chills is a husky and is 5 years old soon.
Kopi is a pomeranian and is almost 5 months soon

Kopi is a hyperactive pup. Pup are usually like this, and chills used to be like that too. But these days, kopi tries very hard to make chills chase after him by some irritating means. Kopi always tries to pull chills' tail, jump onto chills, lick chiils' mouth or tongue, eat chills' food, take chills' bone and whenever chills is sayang by me or colin, kopi would hop forward wanting the attention to be given as well. How playful this little pup is!

Everyone loves Kopi, perhaps because of his small size, unlike Chills. Chills is a big dog, for those who doesnt know chills, one may mistaken him to be a ferocious creature but he is a gentle giant.

$$$$ spent too much

oh no, i think i am over spending this christmas ...
500 on shopping
138 on hair
400 on malaysia trip
200 on chills boarding
200 on birdnest
900 on Pocket PC
TOTAL = about 2400

Jew casting out demon in the name of Jesus, whom Paul preached

Cant sleep. Its 2.31 am.
Wondering wondering wondering.
1-posses aspiration
2-posses spiritual exaltation, plus (1)
3-posses affection, plus bit (2)
If I have to draw a Venn diagram for 1,2,3...I think it will end up very distinct. in the sense that in the end it will be a set of 3 different group still even though the overlapping portion is very insignificant.

Just read... from Acts 19 . A Jew was trying to cast out demon in the demon-possessed man. The jew saod "In the name of Jesus, Paul preaches, I command you to come out." The demon-possessed man rebuked "Jesus I know, Paul I know, but you I do not know." In the end, the demon got out from the man and entered the Jew, and as a result the Jew got a beating by the demon. God, what is the implication that you are trying to tell me to what I was wondering. Faith. so how is it linked?

Perhaps are you trying to tell me, we can know the qualities of things or pple. but how well the qualities complement one really depends on how you place faith in the quality of that person? Even the demon is not afraid of the Jew cos he is lacking faith in Jesus. Though he cast out the demon in the name of Christ, but it is Paul who is the one who believed, and not the Jew himself. I guess so... by placing faith in the good quality of that person, that other good "outcomes" would then follow.

happy bdae mel

Had a gathering on saturday with the guys, its been a long time since all
had met.
Had drinks, wings and pool. Played with viven, and with Jerry as a coach.
Din know that Mel and Viv are quite into pool these days. Anyway, she gave
me plenty of chance.

Its good to see the guys back together. Bro Bro...
Kel looked troubled and not in good shape. We prayed for him. And this is
the very first time we prayed for kel after so many things had happen. May
God helped us to be consistent in our prayer for him.

BS this thurs....on good works
Not exactly a hard topic.

my mini micro vault

Dimension (including cap):
L= 5.5 cm
B= 1.7 cm
H= 0.9 cm
Reading Speed= 12MB/sec
Writing Speed = 7MB/sec
Weight= about 8g
Capacity= 256M
Price= $67

time spent on ... ...

I was busy marking, and just finished yesterday. Havent been feeling goodthese days. lack of sleep, cos seems to be dream quite a bit recently, andso have been gog back for nap in the afternoon before SAP. Been busycoaching my Sec 4 physics boys for four days per week. Getting a little burnout after doing that for 3 weeks. Feel like reducing the frequency, butafraid that the boys cant manage on their own. Sigh, expectation is high onthe physics results, and I really want to achieve it badly this year. Justanother 2 more weeks for me to hold their hands before letting them go ontheir own....I know they can do it....they are really not that bad youknow.....got hope got hope.....I am really hopeful for a 60% dinstinctionfor this batch if not higher........I will be having a mock of the mock 'O's exam with my class boys next week, I wonder how many interested souls willturn up.....

as the song goes di da di da di di da di...

Nothing unsual happens.

I shared a unusal predicament as her. But cant exactly tell when is the ultimatum to end all these. No one will know, only those involved.

Why are the students so happy about adding extra 5 marks to their papers? Cant they sense that it is a form of insult to integrity that they can score not due to their result of their own effort. No one exactly cares about integrity if one can get what they want, this applies to everyone. Thats the sin of greed. The desire for more. Well... lets not judge, cos what u judge unto others, will also be done to you. This is scary....

The battle is on...

Work is such a toil. Seems to be full of thistles and thorns. With demanding expectations to juggle, while on the other hand, with enemies to defence against. In Philippians, God mentioned about the armor that stand against the devil's schemes, am i wearing that armor right now?

Why are the taiwanese so jingoistic about their country? They burned our National flag, and i felt outraged when I saw tt on the news. The taiwanese are simply putting ties between nations at risk, stirring up the unneccesary, and using boorish attitude to see things, just like somebodyin school. Anyway, they are just trying to offend anyone who is in their way, just like somebody in school...

I am glad that some of my boys are working hard, practising papers after papers, so far we had completed 2 papers within this week, and we have peer teaching during SAP too, and glad that they are learning and knowing what they need to achieve. Distinction is just a door step away for some of them even though they flunk in prelims, thankfully they realise their time wasted in the past.

sigh......

mama mia

Another musical production...
Not the first time, but the second time I am watching...
Cerain scenes were hilarious, like the "Tonight the Super Trouper lights are gonna find me shining like the sun smiling, having fun feeling like a number one". A cleverly written play with the abba songs used. But something was amiss compared to Les Mis which I watched 3 years ago...it lacks that X-factor to be considered a world class muscial. I dunno what.... perhaps the backdrop was too unadventurous like Les Mis, Oliver and Forbidden City. It's too simple and constant. Not much of a movement just simple/short rotation through-out. Though swan lake is not exactly under musical genre, but the ballet scene transformation is much more impressive.

I would rate it Band 2 like Miss Saigon.

removing music tag

Trying my best to remove the music tag below. it looks so awful.
Finally after a few hours...I actually left out the word HIDDEN in the code...so it should be [embed src="file name" hidden="false"] ... chey....my html is really getting rusty after not using for so many years.
Finally got the music tag monster from the page...horray

thinking about work...
Looking back at Victoria School's illustrious past, I cant help to think why cant the current Victorians do something to help to restore that status. We play our roles, at least for me, I think I have played it well and I believe that it can be better. I cant help further but to feel helpless...chey...why am i talking about work here...STOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

...getting started

Getting started is quite a problem... hopefully this will get me to write more, reflect more and evaluate more...
I cant believe that I am starting this at this age... thought blogging belongs to the younger ones...but guess it never too old to blog =)